I'm not sure when or how but I've become... an over-thinker.
The level of worry I invest into every little decision is astounding. Whenever I have a choice to make, nowadays, it feels like I can't move without weighing ALL the options and choosing only the best possible one. Even when I do decide I still don't make a move because I get hung up second-guessing that decision until the last minute.
This is proving especially troublesome where my schoolwork is concerned. Right now I have three courses left until I graduate and they're all filled with "choose your own topic" or "you decide on the angle of approach" (or both) types of assignments. It's safe to say I'm a little stressed right now.
In fact, I'm not proud to admit that I'm writing this post instead of doing one of those assignments because I just don't want to face it.
How did this happen? I mean, I guess there were always signs of this being a problem in the past but always did a good job keeping it in check.... I think... While, I've always been a planner and hella methodical when it mattered, at other times I considered myself an easy-going kind of guy. The kind who'd just go with the flow and make decisions on the fly. It's not to say I used to be reckless or anything. Quite the opposite. Now, though, it's like I traded all that for paralyzing indecision and self-doubt.
It's not fun..
I'll stop boring you any further this right here. As much as I'd like to delve deeper into this, I don't have the time right now. That aforementioned assignment isn't going to write itself after all.
I am exactly the same way!
ReplyDeleteI guess accidentally publishing an unfinished (or, in my case, barely started) post happens when you haven't posted in almost a year & forget how the buttons work. I know. Total bait & switch adding several more paragraphs after you've already commented. Thanks for relating, all the same.
DeleteI totally get in. I am in the middle of another international move and have a lot of big decisions to make and not much time to do it. So, while I want to agonize over certain aspects of this move, I can't do that because I have so many other decisions to be made also and just have to move.
ReplyDeleteToo much stress, perhaps? Dude, remember the good old times when we wre having fun, like just four years ago?
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