Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Social Interaction - Quiet Vinny.

I recently figured out one of my main problems. No, not that one! The other one of my main problems. Nooo... Not that either- Wait! I do that? Okay! Let's not get off track here. Just stop listing them for a sec and pay attention. I'm referring to the issue I have when it comes to talking to people.

Despite the amount of words I've put down here on the blog, I forever remain a crappy conversationalist. Fact is, if you met me and we had to have a face-to-face conversation it would probably be a painful experience for all involved. I like to think it's because I'm not a people person. I think I mentioned that a few times in the past. I'm awkward when it comes to communicating verbally. Not because I can't think of what to say but because, whenever someone talks to me, a million thoughts about possible responses swirl around in my head and I get confused. This leads to such gems as saying the wrong thing, not getting the words out properly and – my all-time specialty – talking too fast.

I've thought of ways to fix this but nothing has ever really worked. Friendly and polite have always been my “go-to” states. These, however, are not natural for me. Growing up, I had to work at it. I decided that the mannerisms of a friendly person were what people considered acceptable so I just went with it. (Because what else does an eight-year-old think about?)

After I left the bank, where being fake-friendly was an actual job requirement, I'd gotten my fill of it. I decided to let more of my cynical, dry wit out and it worked pretty well... That is, until the new super-religious supervisor at my next place of employment thought these traits were undesirable of someone working under her and set out to have me removed (I'll mention again that I was never cynical to her). I didn't want to be fake-nice but after that experience I was convinced my initial theory was correct. As a result of all this I'd resigned myself to my awkwardness.

Until recently, that is. See, recently it occurred to me that I was looking at the problem all wrong. I don't always have to have something friendly to say or even something witty. I don't need to improve my conversation skills. I need to do away with them altogether. Well, mostly.

Stay with me here.

You know those guys who keep to themselves, looking all serious and deep in thought and badass. They usually don't say much aside from the odd grunt or one-word response. That's me! I could totally do that! I mean, I already do it sometimes. What I need to do is step it up and be the quiet badass all the time. No one expects the quiet badass to say much. No one expects the quiet badass to smile and feign politeness. The badass does not need to try to be the life of the party.

Have you ever heard of Batman telling jokes during the Justice League weekend barbecues over at Superman's fortress? No! Batman is the one silently examining the pent-up alien beasts in Superman's zoo, figuring out at least eight different ways to subdue and recapture them should they ever escape. No one ever says, “Hey, Bats! Tell everyone about that time you...” No! They all take a vote as to who will approach him to ask if he wants a beer and pray he doesn't karate-chop the unlucky sap through a wall for sneaking up on him too quietly.

I could totally be Batman!

I wish I'd figured this out before! So many wasted years trying to be “social” and “friendly” and none of that was ever truly in my nature. Sure, I'm a nice guy and I'm not denying that, but that doesn't mean I want to talk to you. I honestly don't want to participate in a verbal discourse on how hot it is today. No, I do not care to elaborate on what I meant by “Meh,” when you asked me how my day was going.

Of course, it doesn't help that whenever I don't feel like communicating someone is always there to chime in with a, “Hey, Vinny. You okay? You seem quiet today.” I hate that! Thanks for the concern and all but I just don't feel like talking. That's all! That's it! I'm not upset, I don't need to open up and I don't have a problem I need to get off my chest. Yes, I am sure. I just want to be quiet. It's nice. I like it.

Jeez! It's like society is forcing me comply with their mass-produced standards of social interaction. But I ain't your robot, man! I'm totally not going to dance to your little tune while you pull the strings on my cheeks to make me smile so you can feel comfortable. And I sure as hell ain't going to conform to your fascist rules about mixing metaphors... Man!

Imagine the freedom. I'd never have to fumble for words again. Even better I won't have to pretend to be extra nice and smile just to make others more relaxed. I can finally be the badass I was meant to be!

Now all I need is to get people to stop bothering me. Karate-chopping someone through a wall might seem a bit extreme but I'm fairly certain it'll get the point across.

16 comments:

  1. Perhaps a "Go ahead, make my day" placard on your desk... Or the poster with Conan the Barbarian saying, "I am the man you do not wish to see..."

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    1. A poster might be a good start. Maybe one of Obi-Wan Kenobi saying, "This isn't the man you're looking for..."

      I think I need to give this tough guy bit a little more practice.

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  2. I often prompt my inner voice to say "just shut up" to avoid the same awkwardness you are talking about. I'm trying to be a better listener instead. But asking questions is my go-to strategy. People love to talk about themselves. My other go-to strategy is to smile. It makes such a difference to any potential awkward conversation moments. I'm sure you have a nice smile Vinny. Sometimes it's worth it to use it strategically.

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    1. I think I see what you're getting at. I can use my friendly smile to my advantage as a means of getting the other person to get his/her guard down.

      Then I use the karate chop.

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  3. I think you're on to something with the whole Batman thing. Look at it this way though - it's a whole lot more socially acceptable to be a guy and answer all questions with a grunt. It really doesn't work for women so well.

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    1. I think there just has to be a pioneer to the cause. Some brave woman needs to be the one to lead the way. To break free from traditionally assigned gender roles and say, "Hm."

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    2. LOL.
      THEN SHE...*grunt*
      im not screaming. Shift button got stuck. This would not happen to Batman.

      Then she'll be asked whether she's feeling okay.

      Frak spelling today. And talking or writing in public.

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    3. Of course they'll ask. They'll always ask.

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  4. As an extroverted introvert or introverted extrovert also called an ambivert it is very hard to communicate with people who have no sense of humor or who mistake my facial expression because im actually facing the sun and am squinting not angry and the

    I watch birds.

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    1. When I'm not actually interacting with someone and, as such, not required to appear friendly, most people who look at me tend to assume I'm angry too. In my case, I think it's because I scowl a lot. Whether or not the sun is in my eyes doesn't generally have much to do with it.

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  5. my thought was interrupted because when we need some silence to think, someone will ask what we are thinking about.

    Swallows look like bats. I had too much coffee.

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    1. I don't know if we have swallows here. We have a lot of bats, though. Maybe I'm getting the two confused.

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  6. Good thing I don't live near you, you just made me feel like I'd ruin your life if I made the mistake of trying to talk to you.
    But seriously, it's hard for me to these drawings and these well thought out words on this blog and come to terms with the fact that you claim to be someone who doesn't like communicating with others in all of its forms. Guess that's what makes you so interesting.

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    1. I don't mind people talking to me. Just as long as it's in moderation. Besides, as long as the other person doesn't expect me to say much in return, I'm okay with it. If I can text or draw a response, even better!

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  7. Sure, Batman's all stoic and non-communicative. Until you get a couple tequila shots in him. Then, JEEZUS, that dude will not stop with the sharing. It's embarrassing.

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    1. I think he and I share the same weakness then.

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